My Spiritual Journey
How I Found My Way to Energy Healing
Because healing is a vulnerable process, I want to share a bit about myself and how this healing ability came to be, to help you get a better feel for who I am and the healing work offered here.
I discovered meditation in 2014, at age 19, and it almost instantly became my sole focus in life. Prior to this, from ages 15-19, I struggled with severe depression. I felt like nothing in the world could make me happy—even though seemingly nothing was wrong with my situation. Without realizing I was hurting myself, I used my despair to feed more despair. I spiraled downward and felt I deserved nothing better, isolating myself and self-perpetuating my depression.
I eventually found Vipassana, a compelling practice for my then-atheist self, as it could be presented and practiced in a more secular fashion. After a few frustrating initial attempts, I had several “out of this world” experiences that shattered my expectations of what the mind was capable of, and left me happy for no reason.
Although those wild experiences were fascinating and enjoyable, it was the shift in my day-to-day happiness that truly shocked and captivated me. I remember stopping for someone at a crosswalk in my car soon after my first “successful” mediation. I smiled, and the shock of it felt like a bolt of lightning hit me. The surprise of smiling for no reason was more intense than feeling oneness with all things I’d had only an hour or two earlier.
I quickly devoted hours to it daily and my atheistic beliefs rapidly dissolved after having experiences of intense unconditional love, radical transmutations of depression, sadness, etc (negative karma or limiting beliefs), non-linear experiences of time and space, and countless other magical experiences that are often very hard to use words to describe.
When I was about 21 years old, I read Autobiography of a Yogi, which not only carried a tangible energy to it, but mentioned things I had only started to experience. On top of this, it went beyond what I had experienced, but which I could tap into energetically. It helped build a devotion in me and stoked the already burning fire meditation had lit to grow my connection to Source.
Since then, I found many different thought systems and practices that all point towards the same underlying Truth. I’ve practiced A Course in Miracles, a Tibetan yidam practice and Einstellen primarily for the last 6 or so years, but have also done other energy practices, including Kriya yoga, and japa. I’ve also been influenced by Ramana Maharshi, Nisargadatta, Law of One, Barbara Brennan and more.
I don’t want to give the impression that I’m not still growing, facing difficulties, learning to be vulnerable and kind to myself, etc. That said, I am still highly devoted to growth and to deepening my connection with God. I’m very inspired by the ideas of enlightenment, and total immersion in God, but I also believe there is never an end to growth. Never an end to deepening service. That seems to be what’s so intoxicating about it.
It hasn’t been an easy path so far, as a desire to grow means a willingness to face immense challenges, but I couldn’t imagine a more worthwhile one.
Alongside my dedication to self-growth, I prayed for years with an intense desire to be able to help others. I believe the ability I offer in my Heart-Based Healing and Counseling sessions came from that desire and those fervent prayers. Truly the desire for self-growth and the desire to help others go hand in hand as we are all one.